NO WORDS TO SAY...

Sometimes, like today, when there's a lot going on my mind, i cant seem find the words to express my thoughts,my feelings..
I wonder y so?
is it because maybe i myself am not too sure of wot i feel?
maybe writing will help.

we've heard that life is a drama and we are the actors.
but can we really bring in the detachment into our living?

if that's true then nothing really matters, does it?
then y do we feel hurt? y do we miss people? y do we feel we cant take it anymore? y do we have have expectations? y do we feel lonely? y do we feel unloved? y do we feel ecstatic ? y do we feel happy?

because even an  actor has to do research to get into the skin of the character to give a believable performance.

so we as the protagonist of our own life ...how can we not emote? how does one become indifferent and robot like?

so i think we should acknowledge the way we feel rather than to justify or belittle it.
because the way we feel matters. not acknowledging it makes it worse. the feelings lie buried in there ...gathering dust and cobwebs. airing them would be a good idea.it might make us feel better and our lives richer and healthier.

so wot stops us from airing our feelings?

fear? ...of being scoffed / overpowered / of not being given due importance?

ego?... how can i let people know that this is how i feel?

inability ? ...to stand for ones own emotions...

 afraid of others being hurt by how we feel??.....

how then can we live fully a life that we call our own?
and if we cant do that....how can we call this life "ours"

it ends up that our "character" is not much imp in the movie of our life itself.

so that doesnt make sense does it?

so how we feel, wot we think, and, our opinions shud matter in our life.

and i think that movie of "our life" shud revolve about "us" rather than the rest of them.

so i think its required that we shud be more self centered and its ok to be selfish in that sense as long we dont hurt anyone including ourselves...

conclusion: listen more often to ur heart...at least as much as u listen to ur head.

manderings of a confused mind........hope it made sense to YOU.....GOOD DAY!

Insights on a Morning Walk

Yesterday during my morning walk a small incident occured. Which set me thinking. Consequently this blog.
Let me first describe the incident and then i will share my thoughts arising therefrom.
Ahead of me a group of walkers. Suddenly they diverted ..some to the left some to the right..leaving the centre empty...and then again the convergered together. Curiosity invaded my being.
As i moved a little ahead i saw the reason for this divergence. A very very very small kitten was settled bang in the centre of the walkway. And the walkers out of kindness and sympathy,reduced their speed, changed their course to accomadate her and keep her safe.
Round no 2: the same divergence kept happening. As i approached The Kitten Spot ...i realised that the walker ahead of me was preoccupied with something in the sky on the left...and he marched on blissfully unaware of The Kitten.
I cringed mentally, thinking the stupid kitten will be crushed.
But. As the foot of the preoccupied walker landed in front of her face....she let out a small cry and ran away onto the sidewalk.
Wow.
Round No 3: Again the same divergence.Little Kitten back in the centre of the walking track.
But i was inspired by the last round to try something. i marched steadily towards The Kitten and as my foot landed in front of her she scurried away frightened for her life.
Bingo.
Round No 4: The Little Kitten was perched on the sidewalk and now was aware that her place was not in the centre of the walkway and her life would benefit by remaining on the sidewalk.

NOW FOR MY THOUGHTS

• Why...in the first place were the walkers SO accomadating of The Little Kitten??She had no business being in the centre of the walkway. And if by some chance she had landed there...they shud have gently picked her up and kept her to the side. But they dint do that. They changed their stride and speed to keep the kitten safe.Why are we as a people so fond of tolerance and happy to "appease the weak".


• And the Little Kitty. No one bothered to correct her and put her in a place which was meant for her so she was happy and complacent thinking that she deserved to be where she was and it was her right.


• But the moment she was threatened ...she moved to a safer place...backed off.

So that got me thinking. We tolerate the wrongs of our lives. We adopt a "policy of appeasement"(this policy was the cause of World War II..do u know?)(ya ya now u know i am currently doing Std X History)

getting back to my line of thoughts. so we TOLERATE. We fail to take that minor effort to Correct. And create hurdles for ourselves in the process.

thats the reason for the plight of

our country

our health

our relationships

our politics

Appease the Muslims..turn a blind eye to every wrong they do.

Ignore a health condition till it becomes too serious to correct

And on and on i cud go..

Think.

And next time u get the chance.....ACT.

A Wednesday..The Movie

And what a movie it is !!!! the plot ,acting , direction ,script all excellent. Not withstanding.....what struck me the most abt the movie is the message.Complacency !!! how soon we adapt ourselves to the blasts, riots, natural and man made calamities...we just take everything in our stride and move on.....no matter what happens ...we report to work...back to normal as if the tragedy never happened...we just take it in our stride and go on. As long as we escaped...thank god !!
No its not the indauntable Mumbai Spirit...its just that we have a house to run,bills to pay and expenses to meet !
So is also the case with Corruption and strong arm tactics of a racist stone pelting self acclaimed leader. kaun panga le.....so we bend our standards and put up the name of our organisation in bold Marathi....better put up the marathi version and buy peace rather than stand up to a nobody and take him on...after all hes not in a position of power nor does he make the law of the land !! and we scream ourselves hoarse that we are a DEMOCRACY !! Sorry boss! We are a HYPOCRISY !
and it burns my blood that inspite of the high court ruling to put a stay on this marathi campaign...i see shopkeepers still putting up the new signboards.
And we call ourselves Global....the next Shanghai....to put Bombay....nay Mumbai on the global cosmopolitian map. Nope. We are Retro...going backwards in time. ...where the power of the sword...now the power of a stone thrown...reigns Supreme.
What we have lost is our Honour, our Pride and our self esteem. Because all these dont fill our stomach and needs.
I am ashamed to belong to such a society!!!!

FROM DEATH TO LIFE

INDIA VS AUSTRALIA WAS A HEARTENING SHOW. IT WAS EXTREMELY SATISFYING TO SEE THE BOYS IN BLUE ROAR ON THE FIELD. THEY WEre GIVEN A SINGLE EXPLICIT INSTRUCTION. NO, IT WAS NOT" WIN".....IT WAS...EXPRESS YOURSELF !!!

AND HOW THEY DID !!!!

YOU COULD SEE THEIR AGGRESSIVENESS IN EVERYTHING THEY DID.....IT WAS WOW.......AND THE PIECE OF CAKE WAS DHONIS WORDS......"I DONT CARE WHETHER WE WIN OR LOSE....IT DOES NOT MATTER TO ME. JUST THINK HOW TO PLACE THE BALL WHERE U WANT TO.....ENJOY THE MOMENT"

THIS MATCH SET MY MIND THINKING.....

INDIA IS WELL KNOWN FOR ITS QUALITY OF """"""TOLERANCE""""......WHICH ACTUALLY LEADS TO SUPPRESSION.

TO TELL THE BARE TRUTH , WE ARE A NATION OF SUPPRESSED MINDS, EMOTIONS, FEELINGS. WE ARE A DEAD NATION. SO WAS OUR PREVIOUS TEAM.

THE NEW TEAM CAME WITH A NEW MANTRA, THE YOUNG BLOOD CRAVES ONLY ONE THING. EXPRESSION.

AS A NATION WE NEED TO MOVE AWAY FROM SUPRESSING OURSELVES AND MOVE ON TO EXPRESSING OURSELVES.

BECAUSE SUPRESSING OURSELVES IS EQUIVALENT TO DEATH. WE NEED TO COME ALIVE..TOO LONG WE HAVE BEEN BRAINWASHED WITH GIBBERISH ABOUT HOW TO CURB OURSELVES IN THE NAME OF THE FAMILY , THE SOCIETY , THE RELIGION, THE GOVT.....

THE FAMILY DOES NOT ALLOW THIS, THE SOCIETY DOES NOT TOLERATE THIS, THE RELIGION DOES NOT PERMIT THAT......THE LIST GOES ON AND ON. AND WE LIKE NON THINKING ROBOTS JUST FOLLOW THE RULES. NO INDIVIDUALITY ALLOWED. WE ARE INDIANS.

NO WONDER THE YOUTH HAS HAD ENOUGH OF THIS NONSENSE. NO WONDER THEY REBEL. I SAY. ALLOW THEM THEIR REBELLION. MAKE WAY FOR THEIR AGGRESSION.

IT WORKS.

TOLERANCE HAS GOT US NO WHERE. WITH ALL DUE RESPECTS TO ALL THE HEROS OF OUR HISTORY, WE GOT OUR FREEDOM AT THE CALL OF DO OR DIE. NOTHING HAPPENED WHEN THE LEADERS OR THE MASSES WERE "JAIL BHARO"-ING.

NOPE.

WE HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT THE MANTRA" GIVE ME BLOOD AND I WILL GIVE U FREEDOM" WORKED IN THE END. THAT AHIMSA HAS ITS LIMITATIONS. THAT ONE NEEDS TO PRACTISE AHIMSA AGGRESSIVELY TO GET RESULTS.. THAT OFFERING THE OTHER CHEEK IS PASSE....

SO AN APPEAL TO THE SENIORS IN OUR FAMILIES , SOCIETIES AND THE GOVT TO QUIT THIS GAME OF SUPRESSION TO ACHIEVE DOMINANCE AND ALLOW THE NEW GENERATION TO BE, TO LIVE , TO GROW AND TO BLOOM. PLEASE STEP DOWN TO MAKE ROOM FOR THE DHONIS PLEASE.

THATS THE ONLY WAY OUR NATION WILL ACHIEVE HEIGHTS.